Well it's 4:45am and I am awake! Ashley had a bottle almost an hour ago and has fallen back asleep. I wish I could do the same. So to kill time here I am on xanga. I guess the only real thing I have to update on is Ashley.

I can't believe how much she has changed in 3 months. I was just looking at pictures from when she was first born and the difference is mind blowing. I use to think people exaggerated when they said babies change so much so quickly. Now I believe them. She is such a good baby and for the most part a happy baby. Her smiles melt my heart and when she laughs... oh my goodness it is cute! She is getting more verbal and loves to talk. She wants so badly to sit up on her own but gets frustrated when she can't lift herself up. But let me tell you she feels like she is on top of the world when she sits up or stands up (with our help and support of course).  

Within the last 4 weeks or so she has begun to sleep through the night but there are the occasion nights or early mornings when she wakes up. Luckily she goes back to sleep right away and most of the time I do to. Thank goodness I don't have to work in the morning or I would be a walking zombie.

For being 3 months and 8 days old she still is somewhat smaller than most 3 month old babies I have seen. At her last check up (at 2months old) she weighed 10 pds. That may seem like a lot (don't get me wrong she is growing beautifully according to the doctor) but we were around a baby the other day who is a month younger than Ashley and he already weighted 13pds! That by the way was an adorable experience. Anderson (the 13pouder) kept giving Ashley the eye and smiling at her. She didn't even notice but when he was asleep she kept giving him the eye. They were flirting with each other but just not at the same time. Anderson may give Karen and Greg's boy a run for his money.

I have come to realize that Ashley is a daddy's girl. She only goes down for the night after Ben has rocked her and put her down. Each night before she goes to bed she gets extremely grumpy and Ben is the only one who can calm her down. It is so funny in the mornings when I am getting ready for work and Ben is feeding her they will watch sports center together. No joke! She gets way more tuned in with that than cartoons.

Ashley is such a joy and a blessing. It is still crazy to think I am a mom but it is the best feeling in the world!

I think I am going to try to go back to sleep being that it now is 5:10am. Good night!

First all thank you to those of you who sent the birthday wishes. I wish I could say was full of joy and happiness but sadly the entire day was not.

The day started off fine. My uncle had open heart triple by pass surgery this morning and came out of it beautifully. I went to lunch with a friend who I hardly get to see. And then I got a phone call. Grant it I had been getting calls through out the day from family and friends wishing me a happy birthday. The phone number on my cells caller ID: parents cell.

Didn't think much of it, I talk to my parents a million times a day. I answer the phone to my mom sobbing. My heart stops. I am trying to ask her what is wrong. The next voice I hear my cousin. He tells me to sit down. I know something is wrong. I don't want to sit I just want to know what is going on.
He tell me my dad has had a heart attack. I am numb. I want to cry but I can't I was so scared and worried. My cousin tells me things look good because he got to the hospital in time. I am still scared to death and worried. Ben and I jump in the car and head to the hospital.

We get to the hospital and find my family. My mom comes up to me and hugs me and say he is fine. I can breath. The hospital chaplin comes into the waiting room. (She already knows most of family because she has met them earlier because of my uncle). She says a prayer for my dad, my uncle and the rest of our family.

Minutes later the nurse says we can see my dad. Relief! We go back to him and he still kind loopy from the meds but he is awake. The cardiologist meets us and gives us words of comfort. She says dad will be fine. His back artery was 100% clogged but the other two are perfectly normal. There was no damage to his heart. They put a balloon in and one stint. Praise the lord he is going to be ok!

Now it is time to wheel him to ICU. The nurse says come back in about 20minutes after they get my dad set up in his room. I can tell me dad is feeling better. He is joking and tells me I have to let him know the score of the Anderson-Harrison game. :) A huge smile comes across my face.My dad is ok! This birthday is beginning to look up!

The family (all 12 of us) go to the cafeteria for drinks and snacks. We decide after a while we will go to dinner to celebrate my birthday and the joys of my dad and uncle doing ok. Before we leave we go to my dads room in shifts to talk to him. My dad keeps telling me not to worry about him because he is fine. I tell him I am not worried. He's fixed and is going to be ok. The best birthday gift I got was knowing my dad was going to be ok.

Another great birthday gift I got was knowing I have the best friends and family in the world. On the way to the hospital I send a text message to as many people as I could asking for prayers. Almost immediately I was getting responses saying they will pray for him and us and that we were in their thoughts and prayers. Once I got word dad was doing fine I sent another text updated everyone. The response I received then were heart warming and made me realize how great of friends I have. My family is amazing as well. Like all families we have our differences and whatnot but in times of need we are ALWAYS there for eachother. I am so blessed in so many ways.

Knowing that my dad and uncle are fine my family joke saying do we get a family discount at the hospital or a 2 for 1 deal? :) My dad and uncle are 2 rooms apart from eachother. What can I say my family likes to do things in pairs. 

The nurse says if dads blood work comes back normal he may get to come home Saturday. But if not then he will come home Sunday... Monday at the lastest.

So like I said a birthday I will never forget.

Thank you so much to those I was able to send a text message to and said a prayer. It sure worked! Please continue to keep my dad, my uncle and our family in your prayers.